Kevin finally lies back in his bed, and stares at the ceiling, and tries to figure things out. Tries to figure out what the fuck is going on and how he can fix it.
Xie needs and deserves someone who wants him, that's fair. He should have someone who chose him, who wants him for him, rather than using him for his power or to keep his power from someone else. And Kevin... Kevin will always be the cop who tricked him and stole him without thinking.
And then he thinks of Xie's hair in his hands, thinks of snarking over football, that cat on the back of his chair because he thought Kevin wanted it, and he just thinks about how much he wants to want him, how much he'll miss him when he does leave.
He sleeps poorly, fitfully, and is already up when the others arrive, shutting their questioning looks up swiftly with a look of his own.
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Date: 2023-10-26 04:31 pm (UTC)Xie needs and deserves someone who wants him, that's fair. He should have someone who chose him, who wants him for him, rather than using him for his power or to keep his power from someone else. And Kevin... Kevin will always be the cop who tricked him and stole him without thinking.
And then he thinks of Xie's hair in his hands, thinks of snarking over football, that cat on the back of his chair because he thought Kevin wanted it, and he just thinks about how much he wants to want him, how much he'll miss him when he does leave.
He sleeps poorly, fitfully, and is already up when the others arrive, shutting their questioning looks up swiftly with a look of his own.
"Just let's get on with the brief."